Go with the Flow.

I have to remember this. End of discussion. Lately, it has felt as if I have had this heavy weight of homesickness and loneliness thrust upon me, and I have to remember that worrying over something like that will not make it better. In fact, it will only make it worse, as it has seemed to do in my life at this moment. I need to take moments every day to remember that I am loved by many people and ultimately by the most loving God I have ever known. He will give me what I need and deserve and those that are in my life also want the best for me.

I am his child, and he has me safely in his hands. While this is easily said, it is hard to put into action. All too often, I find myself trying to dwell in negativity about my personal life and what will or will not pan out. I cannot continue thinking this way. Up until a week or so ago, I was EXTREMELY happy in everything in my life, and then this "sickness" hit me and everything started to harbor doubt and stress in my mind and heart. And it will END. I command it to end.

My grandmother, Nana, who passed away last summer, used to always tell me that what you think and say will then be in the universe and come back to you. Therefore if you think negatively and say negative things, you are "cursing" yourself. That has been on my mind a lot lately as well. I do not wish to curse myself. I wish to help myself succeed and reach the heights I was destined to climb to.

Live and love,
Reagan

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